The LORD is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock, in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me, and my place of safety.Psalm 18:2
As believers, it’s so comforting to know that our Almighty God loves us, protects us, equips us and saves us. However, in my personal life I was struggling to fully comprehend that reality – because if I was being honest with myself at the time, I didn’t believe it.
God loves us too much to allow us to stay the same. He does let us settle in the wilderness. His word is the ultimate truth and holds the highest authority. Gods word will dismantle every lie and break every chain that has held you captive. God promises to never leave us or forsake us. His presence in our lives brings resurrection power that saves, heals and fully restores.
The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.Deuteronomy 31:8
I came back home to God 4 years ago, and He’s been saving, healing and restoring me ever since. God has been breaking down my walls and shining His glorious light into the most darkest crevices of my hardened heart. One of the hardest challenges in my walk with Jesus is: surrendering to the truth that God has my back, that He will help me, that He is for me, that He will protect me and love me no matter what. It’s been a rough journey and it hasn’t been pretty – but it’s been one of the most life changing experiences of my life. However, I’m grateful that I went through it and came out on the other side stronger, refined and matured in my faith.
I don’t know about you, but people have failed me throughout my life. I’ve had friends walk out on me, family betray me, and an ex who promised to love me forever – only to come to realize it was all a lie. I constantly felt let down, looked over and not enough. I felt like I had to do more, be better and act a certain way to get the love, protection and safety that I longed for.
These experiences skewed my view of love and safety. It also demolished any sense of trust I had left inside of me. Not only did this effect how I viewed others, it also distorted the way I viewed God. When life was going “good”, I felt like I could trust God – like He had my back fully. But when things went “bad”, I believed that God had abandoned me. My failures, shame and guilt told me I was unloved, uncared for and left to my own devices in the dark.
I lived like this for a few years, until I had enough. I believe that God allowed me to go through the hardships and believe these lies so that I can finally be sick and tired of it and run to Him. He couldn’t make the choice for me. I knew I couldn’t live like this, trapped in a mental torture chamber forever. I knew I needed Jesus to set me free – and He did.
So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.John 8:36
Do you want to know the secret of how I was able to do this?
Its simple: JESUS.
I surrendered my thoughts, opinion and perceptions and allowed Jesus to reign supreme in my life. This is not a time deal. Its a daily process of surrender, repentance, meditating on Gods word and communication with Him. Some days are harder then others and I still struggle from time to time – but surrendering and repenting onto God has been the best CHOICE I’ve ever made in my life.
It’s a choice my friend. I could have kept my walls up, and continued to keep God out, but that’s just going to perpetuate the problem and keep me in the same destructive cycle over and over. What I realized that God has always been there. He had never left me or forsaken me – but I did. I left my first love and put my trust in people. People fail, but Gods love NEVER EVER fails.
“I will never fail you or abandon you.”Hebrews 13:5
So I chose God. I choose to believe Gods word – regardless of how I feel or the lies the devil tried to spew at me. It’s not easy. God never promised this Christian life would be easy – but what He did promise was His son’s sacrifice for us—a promise that no matter what we faced, no matter what fear may cloud our minds, no matter where we go or how far we wander from His loving arms—we will never be alone.
God is knocking on the door of your heart. He wants all of you. The good, the bad and the ugly. Will you open the door to your heart and invite Him in?
Surrender. Invite Jesus into fears. Invite Jesus into doubts. Invite Him into your scars. Invite Him into your pain. Invite him into your shame. Invite Him into your guilt. Invite Him into every part of you – He wants you just as you are. He loves you. You are His beloved. Run into His loving arms and rest in the safety of His embrace.
Now this is what the Lord says. He created you, people of Jacob. He formed you, people of Israel. He says, “Don’t be afraid, because I have saved you. I have called you by name, and you are mine.Isaiah 43:1